The hardest job I ever did during a pandemic

So the original title for this blog was the hardest job I ever did but after leaving it for a while I decided to retitle it. Being a mom is a tough job most days but being a mom during a pandemic  has definitely topped the list of jobs I've done.

Growing up I wanted to be so many things a doctor, a chef, a journalist etc. But being a mom was always on the top of my list. After our journey of infertility and the trials that came with it. Then one day I became a mom. The day we had longed for had came. Now the late nights, colicky baby, throw up and diaper changes made for what I thought was never  ending and exhauting.

Now fast forward 2.5 years and we are in a pandemic. Do you know what living with an extroverted toddler during a pandemic looks like? Why mommy? Why can't I see nana, papa, grandmaman? Why can't I see friends? Why no church? Why can't I go to the park?The never ending questions and sadness that breaks my heart every day. I explain everyday that we need to help other people not get sick and we don't want to get sick. So, in his little voice he says pray mommy pray.

Everyday we pray after the millions of questions and the answers. He definitely doesn't make it always seem easy with the countless meltdowns and frustrations. Especially since he has no outlets outside of our walls and yard and because he is 2 and doesn't understand what it is happening in the world. I'm learning so much in this pandemic about being a mom, being patient, being the best caregiver for him that I can be in this time. I'm learning to give extra snuggles and extra comfort during a time where he seems and feels lonely.

I'm going to finish to say I feel you parents in this time. Especially the ones still working and helping with schoolwork. Keep trusting God and reach out to those around you for comfort and support. I always thought I was well insulated as a mom with people around md for comfort and advice. During this time I am truly grateful for those people who even through a text message or phone call can just offer that comfort I needed during this time.

My last thought is don't let the pandemic eat you up. Don't let it consume you. Trust God in this time. I've learned to lean on Him even more in a time of uncertainty especially with my parenting skills. Find grace and reach out, cry, and pray.